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A tea and death metal fuelled frenzy!
Sorted all the books in my living romo
room
Got all of the random crap out of my living room
romo too
Swept living room
Used CLR (soap scum+calcium+lime+rust remover cleaner) to clean my shower. That too awhile and a lot of elbow grease.
Cleaned my sinks. Kitchen and bathroom
Cleaned kitchen counters
Did the dishes
Cleaned my water boiler gizmo
Cleaned the fridge so it’s now spotless inside and out
Boxed sorted books that I’m getting rid of
Put ‘keep’ and ‘keep for now’ books away on shelf
Cleaned window screen in bathroom
Emptied trashes
Anti-flea sprayed the other room just in case.
Made dinner
Organized my creative area
Replied to prospective lodgers, set meetings for Thursday and tomorrow
Checked litter box, emptied the pan that catches litter when kitty paws are coming out of litter box.
Cleaned bathroom floor
Cleaned toilet
Cleaned pantry shelf
Fought off depression
Exercised for half an hour
Resisted urge to reactivate facebook
Dealt with intense loneliness (successfully!)
Arranged design meeting with friend
Socialized with new friend
…all accomplished in about 6 hours. RAWR!

Although the sharp edges of my previous postings no doubt serve to convince the faithful that I am deeply unhappy and angry at ‘god’, that is not actually the case. I’m not angry at any of the thousands of deities man has postulated–I just have a wounded mind. 

Depression is both discrete from grief and not reliant on having a rational source. If I may be forgiven for flippancy, I would say that depression and anxiety are the Tillandsia of the emotional spectrum–they root in little or nothing and remain obstinately hale with only the very slightest support from real-world events.

As Andrew Solomon mentions in his excellent commentary on the subject, (found here) depression is not unhappiness but rather the absence of vitality. A crushing enervation and bone-deep chill which siphons the zest and enjoyment from those who suffer it; known by the sufferer to be nonsensical, irrational, and baseless but inescapable nevertheless. I’ve been dealing with it for a long time, and the best strategy I’ve been able to find thus far is to recognize that it’s in some part external and focus exclusively on self-care. The obvious disadvantage to this strategy is that it tends to rapidly corrode one’s work or school performance, and there’s nothing quite as delightful as depression spiced up with guilt and anxiety.

My trouble tends to be that I want to analyze and solve problems, and depression is a bottomless pit of problems that cannot be rectified. The only winning solution can be found in Wargames. The only winning strategy is not to play. It sounds like giving up, you might say, and in some ways it is, but if one’s brain is constantly keening in agony and screaming that nobody cares, nobody loves you, nobody ever will, and you don’t deserve to live… It might be a good thing to avoid trying to sort all that out right at that moment and have a sandwich because you know you haven’t eaten yet and you really ought to.

All I’m saying is that god isn’t going to make you that sandwich.

 

 

So that lasted a lot longer than I thought it would. It turned into a mental health break too. I guess I’ll have to explain that in more depth, but suffice it to say that when I say “mental health break” I really do mean it in more than a “heavens I was overworking myself a bit” sort of way.

Partially as a consequence of shifting priorities, I think I will shift format a bit to include a bit of evidence in contradiction to the frequent claims of the religious, spiritual, and those persons who insist on referring to their theological convictions as a, “relationship”. (If it is indeed a relationship, I cannot help but note that it bears more resemblance to a stalker who happens simply not to be stalking a person who is demonstrably extant in reality.)

This is a somewhat long-winded way of saying that I think I’ll include posts about other things rather than confining myself exclusively to books and the ridicule of the ridiculous. There is, after all, no better refutation of the nonsensical position that one cannot be satisfied in life without believing in space pixies or what have you than evidence of a life lived well in the absence of such frippery.

 

In any event, my apologies for the long absence, those few of you who actually read this. 

All sorts of exciting new adventures have been occurring in my life as of late, and I find myself embroiled in the tasks of quieting all of that down, getting a new car, and finding gainful employment. Believe it or not, there is not a large market for people giving their opinions–though you would not be able to tell by looking at the American media. 🙂
Sporadically working on articles while I job hunt, etc. and will get back to work once all that settles down.

Hi folks, I’ve been hard at work on episode 2, since I try not to use copyrighted images I tend to draw a lot of my own material, generally in paint since I don’t care about it getting into the Louvre. (Getting the point across is good enough for me.)
It takes rather a lot of time to do this, but it will probably speed up in the future once I get a stock of pre-drawn stuff.
Update as of 2306 PST: I’ve done a total of 11 separate illustrations so far, and each needs to be combined with text that I research separately from different sources to form 22 separate images. Even though it’s relatively simple it is taking a lot longer than I anticipated.
Still, I think the results will be worthwhile.

Finished with Episode 1.  Have a look!


Working on episode 2 now, should be done tonight or tomorrow morningish. I was originally going to just upload them as audio but cajoled myself into providing visuals, so it is taking a lot longer than I originally anticipated.

 

Cheers.

 

By the way, if anyone was wondering what happened with the Jehovah’s Witness, I’ve gotten him down to saying he believes in God because the Bible says so, and saying the Bible is true because God wrote it. At least he admits that it is 100% based on faith and not actually provable aside from the dubious “evidence” of prayer.

I am debating a theist in a coffee shop right now. I would offer to stream it, but that’s beyond my current technical abilities.
I know I’m slightly behind, but never fear, it is on the way.  🙂